Weekly Update: Beta Week 4

 

 

 

If you have been following my progress and my journey you know I have been working out with Shaun T every morning bright an early. Focus T-25 has been my program of choice. It has been challenging. It has pushed me to my limits and really allowed me to see myself push harder. And teach me that I can do more than I actually think I can.

 

 

People may call me crazy but I just say I am determined. With my work schedule to get my workout, in enough time to get ready for work, etc I get up anywhere between 4-4:30. And I can't lie sometimes it really is hard to get up that early, but it is the only way I will not make excuses. If I don't then when I get home I know it will be harder for me to do it. It is hard to work all day and then come home to working out and getting prepped for the next day. I will not compromise on a workout. That is "my" time. It is my stress reliever, it is a time for me to clear my head and get my mind set straight before starting my day. I love everything about how I feel when I am done.

Week 4 Beta Schedule:
Monday-Rip't Circuit
Tuesday-Dynamic Core
Wednesday-Core Cardio
Thursday-Dynamic Core
Friday-Speed 2.0 & Upper Focus

I did Speed 2.0 Friday and decided to do Upper Focus Saturday morning. I love lifting weights and upper focus is a favorite of mine. I started to lift heavier and push myself one step further Saturday. And let me tell you, my shoulder/chest area...SUPER SORE, which I know it is working, but woah baby my arms are sore. The one thing I will say I noticed a difference is from stretching. This week I skipped the stretching and my muscles were really sore compared to when I actually stopped a gave myself a three minute stretch. Stretching is really important when you are going to workout so intense like that.

 

I'm struggling with eating. I just can not pin point it. I always ALWAYS have my Shakeology for breakfast & lunch is on key as well. When I get home dinner is good too, but then its the after dinner hours that get me. I am not sure why. I know it is wrong and I shouldn't have it, but sometimes it doesn't stop me. It is almost like you have it looking at you right in your face telling you to eat it. Or is it possible to lock your kitchen cabinets right after dinner, because I am highly starting to consider it. Truthfully, I don't feel stressed or like I have a million things going through my head. And I know I'm not, so I am not sure I know what the word is to describe how I am feeling. My work situation has not been the greatest right now, so maybe that is a factor. I am not sure if I am feeling upset, disappointed, angry, hurt, it really is hard to go into work everyday and pretend like things are okay. I mean you spend practically your whole day there, you want some interaction right?! I think right now I am feeling confused, because I want to be accepted, but then again I am being myself and why should I have to change myself. So in the end I am confused.. but everyday I go into work with an open mind and tell myself positive thoughts. Some situations you can just not change.

 

Challenge yourself. Push yourself to your limits. You are your greatest competition. You never know what you are capable until you try!

 

Are you looking for help on your own personal health and fitness journey? I would love to help and personally mentor you. Please feel free to E-mail me for any help or questions.



Finding Your Place:

 

Accepted-  (adj) commonly approved or recognized; customary; established. 

-generally approved; widely regarded as normal, right, etc. 

Honest truth? Do you have to fit in to be accepted? Are you one to change your views and beliefs just to fit in with a "certain" type?  Why are you so badly trying ro change who YOU ARE for who THEY WANT you to be?! 

The other definition... Normal. Really? What is normal anymore? Is there a normal type? And who's the one to say that this is acceptable as normal?

Why can't we just go through life happy they way we are? Why do we try so badly to fit in with every person and/or group that crosses our paths in life? 

                   

                           

Do you have the answer? 

Because I know up until recently I struggled with this answer, and I still have my days where I can get down and struggle. But, then I usually start to read a little personal development and think to myself, "so what if they don't like me" or "they are giving me the cold shoulder because I choose to go after something bigger and not stay at status quo."

It is easier said then done I know. Take it from someone who has been there. Someone who has recently been through it and still goes through with it. NO- I am not changing who I am to fit in, but I am defiantly not accepted now. Some days I can walk in there and have the I don't care attitude. And other days I really struggle and get upset & depressed because I honestly have done nothing wrong and just don't understand. How can people be so, (what's the word I'm looking for) petty?

What I can tell you is, it will not get an easier until you learn to accept the negativity and change your attitude towards it. Be positive and don't let anyone rain on your parade. You are here to do great things, go far in life, and shine bright like you were meant to be. You just have to use the nay-sayers as you motivation, like I do, these are the people that add fuel to your fire and make you push that much harder! (You know who I'm talking about...we all have them)

 So where does one go to "find their place" ? Think about it...you are accepted by the people that are just like YOU! Like minded people, the same views, goals, work ethic, etc. you never have to change you just have to find them. 

Where do you look for these people?  What are you passionate about? Who do you strive to be? Are you a self-motivator who likes to help others? Are you determined & driven by a challenge? These are questions you have to ask yourself. These are questions you have to answer yourself. Only you know the answer, but there are people just like you & I out there who are struggling like we were/are. All I want to do is give guidance and help the next person not feel the way I did. To help someone feel not lost in their life, like they have no direction, or no place to be. Because no one should ever feel alone. No one should ever feel empty.

If you are reading this and this is EXACTLY how you feel... PLEASE PLEASE reach out. There is no judging here, just a listening ear to help, give my advice, and what has worked for me. But know this....you are not alone. Somewhere out there you are accepted just for being the silly old you that YOU are!!